Do I Hate...

Sharpness of the blade
Cutting through my skin
Stealing away my youth
My innocence within
Gone in the flash of a moment
The girl I used to be
Left a bloody mess
Where no one could even see

Do I hate the man
Who left me there for dead
Am I still afraid
Or did I move ahead

The weight of the .357
Shoved against my chest
I can still feel the pain
From where it once was pressed
The security of my home
Gone in the blink of an eye
The man I thought I loved
Because of him I'll die

Do I hate the man
I loved with all my heart
Did I move ahead
I didn't even start

Hate is only a word
But so is LIFE and DEATH
Words that hold no value
Unless followed by a threat
Do I live for the moments
That got me where I am
Or am I stuck in the memories
Of when it all began
That's something I do not know
I also do not care
Being dealt a horrible life
Is something I must bear

I'll carry my hate inside
Where I know it will stay safe
Because YES I hate those men
Until this very day
May they rot in hell
Getting all that they deserve
I hope they scream in pain
Every time it hurts
If I could hold that knife
Or the gun within my hand
I would control the outcome
Until the very end