My Dream...

My dream is to live a life free of being controlled. I've come a long way in this world compared to who I was 4 years ago. Learning to stand on my own two feet (to defend what's right) has been so rewarding! It was hard to make it here...alone...not really alone. I had my boys! Everything is about them now...always was. I'm just saying the whole single woman thing. For some reason, this is just the way I like it. Spending 10 years having your life mapped out for you, this freedom is wonderful. No more asking permission to go anywhere...no begging to buy my boys new shoes...no fear of when he's going to snap once again. It's over...and I moved on!

The one thing not many people know is that I look over my shoulder every day...I have no choice. There was one thing stopping him from killing us - only one! He looked up to my dad...he even feared him...the only reason he didn't succeed at killing us is because my father was still alive. That's not the case anymore. I know what my future holds for me...I'm not an idiot. He will be brought to justice when something happens...and my children will avenge me. I am there world...they are mine.

There's very few things in this world that are worth holding onto. It's a world of hate and crime...murder and mayhem...there's not much good left anymore. It kills me seeing what the world has become - compared to when I was growing up. I never had to worry about the things my children do...never had to lock my doors...never had to fear a stranger. In this day and age...the strangers are a lot safer than what most people would think. It's the family that could end up killing you. Hold onto your children...keep them safe...no matter what the cost.